unreal

unless i consciously think about it, it doesn’t occur to me that I’m dating yoU AND YOU ARE MY BOYFRIEND AND I AM YOUR GIRLFRIEND AND WE ARE IN LOVE like damn i know it’s true but taking a step back and thinking about it sometimes feels so surreal and sometimes i feel like i annoy you or am intruding in your life or being too clingy if i always ask if you want to hang out but i need to realize that if you don’t want to hang in that moment you’ll just tell me and other than that i shouldn’t feel bad about asking you because it’s a given that when you’re in love you want to spend every single moment with the other person so it isn’t annoying if i ask you because that’s how iT IS but i always forget that and that’s the reason i stop myself from texting you sometimes when i feel like I’m being too much because i never ever want to be an inconvenience to you and never want to make you feel bad in any sort of way because fuck you’re the best fucking thing to ever happen to me and even right now i feel giddy because holy fuck you’re my boyfriend? you’re mine?? you’re in love with me too??? that’s unreal. and i hope soon it becomes a normal thing for me to know we’re in a relationship and aren’t just friends and that i shouldn’t feel bad about wanting to hang out with you when it’s possible and that my existence and my rants and my habits and my face doesn’t annoy you, and that the fact that we’re in mutually loving relationship means you actually feel the same way about me as i do about you fuck holy fuck that’s so unreal and the feeling of being in love with you hasn’t gone away since 3 AM, 13th May and never for a single moment have i doubted my immense love for you and nothing you or i do is going to change how much I’ve fallen for your stupid hot adorable sexy smol face. i always star the messages in which you tell me how much you love me because sometimes I’m so involved in my self hatred that I forget it. I’m your girlfriend. i keep thinking that and it feels weird every time. but weird in such a good way. i just hope you never stop feeling the same.